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Monday, March 14, 2005

OK...i give up.....i am gonna see a doc later....woke up this morning with my left eye swollen to about 1.5 the normal size and i can hardly open it cuz it is glued firmly together with those crust-like brownish stuff...now i AM worried....never had a sore eye for this long a period...or this SIZE for all it matters.....i dowan to go blind!but i doubt it will be that serious la...haha....i can roughly guess what the doc is gonna say later....oh you got an infection in your eye...did you rub it?you shouldn't have....i give you some eye disinfectant...apply it once every 4 hours till the swelling subsides....do you wear contact lenses?...avoid wearing them for the next few days......blah blah blah....ya like i will try to make myself blind by risking wearing contact lenses so i can look nicer in front of my dogs....but on a more serious note....i dunno what i'm gonna do if one day i'm gonna get blind....if itz only in one eye...i think i can live with that....if both eyes are gone....i am not gonna spend the rest of my life in total darkness...but itz hard to kill yourself when you are blind...you might wanna jump off a building but realised later you are only on the 2nd storey and ended up with broken legs instead...or drink some stale orange juice when you thought you are drinking detergent and end up with diarrhoea where you cant even find the toilet paper....anyone wanna help me?nice song on my blog ya?but sad though....keeps trying to recall which movie was it from...saw it on mtv in the past...i only knew it starred hugh grant....was it nine months??bridget jone's diary?2 week's notice?whatever.....My friend read my friendster profile and ask me if i was ok...she thought i am feeling real down and thinking of ending my life!!!wahahahah!!!!dear friends...in case you are thinking the same....worry not...i am definitely NOT suicidal....there's so many stuff that i still wanna do....haha....that passage is inspired by a chinese movie i watched on friday or sat nite....i cant remember....i dun think alot of pple will watch that....i know tt xiao char bor(meiling) friend of mine did...but i dun think she finished it cuz she said she was tired...it is about a top professional killer who
fell in love with a girl who is dying of a certain terminal illness soon....hmm...now tt i realised...the killer in the movie is going blind as well!!!wahahha!!!anyway....the girl said pretty much the same thing i wrote in my friendster....i juz translated into plain english...hee...wow...am i in the mood for writing...wrote so much without realising it...muz be in a writing-frenzy mood after a long layoff from blogging.....

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